So I had a tarot reading done on friday and it confirmed what i already was suspecting. My relationship with garr is not solid anymore. We have some things we need to work out or it wont last. For some reason he is sabotoging our relationship. I dont know why nor does he. I know he is still dealing with the whole transplant and how i have ( Read more... )

Well i guess its no suprise that now that im feeling better, i want my horses home. I miss them and being able to see them any time. WE have fencing to fix and barn cleaning to do but im excited ( Read more... )

Well it always seem with me that when i work or get a job its always a physical one. Im not sure if i just have bad judgement or i like to punish and push myself...God i remind me of someone(u know who you are!!) But had i not taken on these physical(and at times rewarding) jobs than i know i wouldnt be as fit as i am now and id probably still be ( Read more... )

Im a very vivid and chronic dreamer. I will dream several times a night and remember them, often waking up from them. Ive been having really bizarre ones that end up leaving me thinking about it all day and sometimes several..., Lately alot of them involve my relationship with garry and my family. I seem to be either fighting with or getting ( Read more... )

okay so today i am rudely awaken by a throbbing earache so bad that i spent all morning popping tylonel 4's than broke down and took 2 doses of morphine before i had any relief! So i spent the day half stoned but itleast i could think. Im not sure if its cold related or if i may have a tooth that is infected but if its not better tommorow i may ( Read more... )

Well I broke down and called my old boss at the kennel. I asked her if i could get some hours and she agreed. I cant believe im going back there but i have no choice right now. Im not sure how im gonna get to the end of the month financially. I have a whole new respect for those who actually dont live at home anymore and have to live in the ( Read more... )

Well if there is one thing that hasnt changed since my new life it is my ability to sleep all day and night! I really thought i would have more energy and be able to stay awake all day. Its been tough. I get so sleepy and my mind gets foggy so i need to lay down. I feel so lazy and unproductive and useless at times. Everyone tells me im not ( Read more... )

Im doing fine and just been busy these days. Here is an update on me ( Read more... )

I hurt, im tired and i feel so bloody defeated. Some days it feels like i can never do anything good enough and yet i keep trying to please even people who dont deserve it. Ive always been this way, trying to keep everyone happy, be everyones friend and confidant as well work my ass off. It seems i do more for others than myself and it needs to ( Read more... )

not a whole lot new. Im tired and sore as usual. Ive been riding alot more and now im teaching lessons again which has been going well. Im working at the barn still and will be working with a horse there to see if i can get him going as a lesson horse.

im not feeling much like talking/typing right now. Ill update later...