i like being chosen. i like being chosen to be something, or do something. it makes me feel like somebody.
today i thought about choices people have made regarding myself, and how out of every single other person, they chose me. and suddenly everything seemed a lot more important and close to home. friendship, family, and love weren't limited by ( Read more... )

oh god this song is so sad...i think i remember crying in my car to it last fall

after i did some sit ups tonight i was really tired and just didn't get up off my white carpet and laid on my side for a while. out of the corner of my eye i could see the ceiling fan spinning, and my left eye began to twitch, which it had been doing all day. it kind of reminded of me of the scene in "garden state" when zach braff is laying in bed ( Read more... )

i am largely at peace with things right now. maybe it's because the fall weather has been so beautiful, or because so many weird, random things have been happening, or because even though some things have gotten me down lately, there have been a lot of positives also. i am usually pretty optimistic, but for a little bit there i was struggling. now ( Read more... )

i feel really antsy right now. but not like a bad antsy. just like i could drink a lot of water. which is a pretty worthless thing to be antsy about. i could really go for a pumpkin frappe or a really big glass of water with lemon. this entry is worthless. haha anyway, last night was ridiculous, but i really liked it, even if i ate more cookies ( Read more... )

KATHLEEN IS PAINTING AND I AM SITTING TALKING TO HER. IT IS JUST LOVELY. IT IS 10:40. IT IS A TUESDAY. IT IS OCTOBER.  the other day i was thinking about her livejournal post about painting her friends in her studio, and this is reminding me of that. i can't stop laughing weird tonight. it's chilly out, and i want to take a very long nap.

STEPHANIE

today is friday, and apparently there is no better way to spend a friday night than doing your laundry. i made that my friday night thing to accomplish to distract myself from wanting to go out, which worked. tomorrow at 10:57, actually it will probably be later than that, but regardless, is what everything is leading up to, which is slightly ( Read more... )

sometimes i wish i was a pretty little doll

i just want to lay in the middle of a field right now

i never expected this to happen