Sitting here at Hickey Brothers on a Friday night... a usual thing for me. I find myself wondering and thinking. I do not always know how I feel on a daily basis but... I find myself in a crazy world on a constant basis... At least I know one thing, I am constantly crazy and lost. Who knows what will actually come tomorrow. Right now I know for ( Read more... )

So, I find that the things that I know are not in conjunction with those around me. Apparently I am just not what the rest of the world finds itself to be. I also find that I don't give a shit about the world that can't seem to keep up with my logic. My logic may not make sense to anyone but I understand it and that is the way it is. I don't care ( Read more... )

Suppose the facts of life are really not facts ( Read more... )

Yesterday was history in the making... Senator Obama became the President elect. Now for the true ignorance of people within our nation to emerge. I actually read something by someone I know stating that because Obama was elected that socialism and larger budget deficits would form. Last time I checked, Sen. McCain was the socialist. On January 20 ( Read more... )

the lungs fill with the poison

choking out the simple life

the struggle continues to survive

the sound of the color vibrates

feeling of quicksand surrounding

how do I feel in such a way?

The thoughts and feelings I carry only make things worse for me. I find myself lost in this sea of knowledge. No focus, no commitment, no solid ground. Things speed by ( Read more... )

How is this mind blowing sex actually real? I mean it is the most amazing thing! I never had any idea that it could or would be this great. I think it has to do with the fact that it is love and not just some bullshit. Yep, that's it. I love her and she loves me... We are and will continue to be totally in love ( Read more... )

My existence means what? When we sit and think about what is true and real, how does that really protray the idea of reality and truth? I sit alone but know others exist. The table at which I am sitting exists. Physical things do exist within our realm. What is an emotional idea or thought? Is this a non-physical thing? My own mind may deceive me, ( Read more... )

The days become long and drawn, I find myself lost within a world unknown. How do I find the image that I can not imagine to be absolute in its existence? Finding out where my soul actually exists or does not exist is most of the battle. How can I possibly find the non-physical being?

Here I sit in my mind again. Simple doubts of the world surrounding me. Does this God truly exist? To prove such an idea it may take quite some time. What is absolute and truthful? From a religious perspective, what is God? How does anyone possible know for sure as to why God can not be more than just what is written in a book that has been ( Read more... )

How do I prove that my emotions are real enough to share with others? As each moment passes by, I can find a new thought. Working hard to maintain my well being proves to be more difficult than once believed. What is love? Is it merely an emotion labeled as so people can join together and be accepted by the social control?  OR is there something ( Read more... )