"Do you want an early lesson in life? People are shallow. You're ugly so no one will ever love you. Sure you may be able to get by with your personality and intelligence, but people will only think of you as a friend at most. You are not fit to be loved."

-words that permanatly lowered my self esteem when I was twelve.

There is no such thing as love. It's a front. I'm glad I don't allow myself to get attached anymore. I've decided that the pain afterward overrides the actual happiness you feel when you're in love ( Read more... )

I haven't been eating regularly for about two and a half weeks, niether have I been sleeping. I would hate to say that another person is to blame for my awkward behavior but I can't find any other reason. This person is, after all, the one that pervades my dreams. I don't know what it is that leaves me like this, exspecially since up until a week ( Read more... )

I like women because most men scare the crap out of me and I need to get some lovin' somewhere. I never was too interested in men anyway (I've only thought of two sexually, and the first was mainly just a fascination with). Unfortunately I do like one guy right now. He's a very nice guy and I do care about him, but like I said, men make me nervous ( Read more... )

I finally got glasses a couple of days ago. Everyone is so pretty! I'm noticing all this weird stuff that I wouldn't have even thought twice about before. People are totally different creatures as i pick up their body language and watch them in awe. Children aren't even that big of nuisances, they are just dainty and amusing to watch.

The Locust show was pretty good. It was so hot in there. Like 50 people all grinding up against you. HA Ha, good times. I saw a couple people from past shows and met a few new people. It was in Off The Record so I figured it would be packed anyway but I had people pushing up against me as they tried to cram into the front. I ended up standing on ( Read more... )

Oh my anthropomorphic creater figure, the chick on the cover of SKRATCH magazines ( june 03 ) is fucking hot! Very nice looking mohawk. Umm,...drool.

Well, all of my feeble attempts to get a job that i would be satisfied with have failed. Tomorrow i think I'm going to just volunteer at a venue near my house. I'm kinda getting behind in my homework, but hopefully, having something besides homework to do will allow me to actually keep my mind on it. Anyway, just as long as i can start hooking up ( Read more... )

wow I'm poor. i have $3 in my wallet. I need a job

I'm down $6. My friends needed some money to buy cigarettes @ this place where it's buy one get one free. Foolishly i let them borrow a $20. The person they got to buy the cigarettes for them agreed on $1 and a couple of cigarettes. The guy came out and tossed them a pack of cigarettes and said he didn't need the dollar. He kept the other pack and ( Read more... )