my dad blocked me from beinh able to log onto livejournal any more. if you would like you can email me at yoblondy77@aol.com or my sn is drinkink01...ill try to tALK him into changin his mind.

well i was readin all my entries and i guess i have changed a little about myself and its been downhill. my exams are tomorrow and i am really nervous because if i fail that then i fail the course and dont get any credit because i was in the hospital for so long. that kina makes me mad but i dont care. i cal try my best but the liklness of that is ( Read more... )

im at my limit. i dont think that i can take this pain much longer. its really gettin to me. i cant stop crying. i have made myself throw up twice already from crying so much. no one is here to maybe hold me. i feel like nothing. i want to curl up in a ball and hide in the closet so no one can see me. i have exams next week, well start tomorrow ( Read more... )

today was a really bad day for me! yesterday was the last day of school before exams and i was so glad to be close to the end of school so i was in a good mood until about 11 pm. parker, my ex boyfriend that i love more than anything called me and said that he didnt want anything to do with me any more. people are saying that he abuses girls and ( Read more... )

today i just got back from softbal practice and i pretty much showed every one up at running and batting. i guess all the exercise i have been doin for a while now is payin off. sucks for them. there is one girl that is really over weight but she is trying hard and i think that is important too-although it isnt pretty to see her run. :/ i getting ( Read more... )

i havnt written in here in almost a month because a few reasons. mainly because i dont know how to put my emotions to words. i have been diagnosed with add so now i take more meds for that. i am hopefully getting off of one that is not allowing me to lose weight and keep it down. that really makes me mad! i want to be down to 110-115 and i was ( Read more... )

today and yesterday i have been throwin up alot. i think its because i havnt really been eating that much. its makin my parents mad at me even more. i hate my parents! sometimes i wish that they would die. today all i ate was a brownie and a little bit of pizza it was nasty. i havnt been sleeping well at night either but i think thats because of my ( Read more... )

today i had softball practice for 5 hours and it was hot. i did well though so that part was good. my sholder from when i had surgury gave me problems. this one girl that i dont like at all thats on my team broke her collerbone so she will be out for a while so now i dont have to listen to that bitch act like she owns the place. but my day wasnt ( Read more... )

the other day was a good day for the most part. i went to the beach with a friend and got a tan and hung out with some other people at the beach. it is too cold to Get in the water now but the weather was beautiful! its nice out now other than the 20-30 mph winds. i saw my ex at the beach which was nice but made me want to ne with him more, i had ( Read more... )

today i had to wake up and get ready for church much earlier than i wanted to and dress all nice. then i went to my aunts house and helped my cousins hunt easter eggs and hung out with my cousin that is 17 that just Got out of boot camp. im glad to see him. the rest of the day i have been laying around the house crying and thinking of the good old ( Read more... )