I know what the fuck is going on here and so many things are not right. Sometimes it’s absolutely unbearable. Numbers run through my head: Money money money. It is a travesty that such a large chunk of my mind space is taken up by something so unnatural and evil. Those numbers in my head should be referencing life cycles of plants or the lunar ( Read more... )

Friday at the Getdown I felt more at peace with my body than I ever have. I understood how to make every tendon in my body do exactly what I wanted it to do, and I did it! I danced to the drums that were also my heartbeat, and I embraced play and movement. I understood the symmetry of the world and how it connected to the symmetry in my body. I ( Read more... )

As abrupt as the windshield wipers in an unfamiliar car when you meant to use the turn signal

- teenagers protesting planned parenthood ("planned parenthood steals souls")
- an 11 year old with fake nails because she had "like two parties to go this weekend"

what is happening to our youth!
we have failed them.

I am worried about being found out. My morality is pretty stable… I think at least… but it is hard to tell. What is true, however, oftentimes what I believe does not sync well with what I do: hold my tongue, hide the drugs, say, “sorry,” when I’m not, wear clothes, wear clothes that fit, don’t mention the drugs ( Read more... )

They trust you, and it is uncertain whether such trust will be useful in the future. Even if such trust awards you very few true rewards and has indeed given you significant grief, you must be quiet in your ways. You must have a reasonable excuse for every queer behavior, an excuse that will not be easily questioned by the trusting others. It’s ( Read more... )

Use of popular anger has been proven to significantly decrease the risk of progression away from consumerism ( Read more... )

Today I talked to my mom for a while, which is always a good thing for both of us. I realized that every year for the past couple of years, I have been so much better at Christmas than the year before. Last year at this time I barely had a bedroom, and this year I have two! This will be the first year in 4 years that I am not infatuated with a ( Read more... )

One of the thing I have found a lot of time to do this trip is read.
so far I have finished reading


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about being stuck.

I have a hard time feeling good about what is going on right now, and thinking about what might happen tomorrow.  I want to learn how to live in the moment... weed helps.  and i dont have any.

It's starting to get cold here.  My grampa likes it a few degrees cooler than I would prefer - in that I am so cold I am wearing a hat indoors... The cold tends to stifle any little bit of motivation I might have to do anything other than take hot baths, drink hot cocoa, and lay in bed wrapped up in blankets.  It's hard enough for me not to be a ( Read more... )