I'm sick of myself. Being so constantly world weary. I miss Chism. A big part of me does. But only when I remember the way we used to be. Both of us different. Bright eyed and hoping for love. and getting it. And just forgetting how rare it is. I miss him being so different from everyone else in the world. A whole kind of new. So rare and ( Read more... )

i can't stand him megan. i just want to scream. and i do. and then i cry because he is an asshole.

"I'm just tired Chism.I'm sorry. God, im so sorry." How strange the way this world works. Thats it. a couple of years of my life, and now I have to adjust. I have to take his photographs off the walls. Have to take down the one of him sleeping off of the headboard of my bed. i'll keep his paintings up. They are beautiful. Awkwardness. Running into ( Read more... )

Sitting by the glow of the undying television. listening to songs on sirius twenty six. watching the names of artists and songs float nimbly across the screen. I am discontent. A brat if you will. I am just tiring of the same old. I will not hesitate to complain, its my journal my musing. Too much drama for me. I wish things were more simple. girl ( Read more... )

relief is very nice. closure is lovely ( Read more... )

The chill is apparent. My thoughts are not. I see reflections in my coffee. Or at least think I do. And sometimes I smile, sometimes something quiet and repressed swells up inside me,I throw my coffee out and decide to sit and ponder.I know it has something to do with the spells of autumn. Or how I remember things that are attached to the crispness ( Read more... )

cody in the sky with diamonds

my heart beats fast
there is autumn
hold my breath, hold the cold
sweet crisp autumn
creeping in to love

fuck you. enough of your bullshit. why are you so bitter with me? why cant you look at me in the eye and be civil. stop acting like a child. if you never loved me then why do you act the way you do? honestly. people gave a shit about you. people loved you. not just people but your friends who you loved back. with all your heart. you cant just get ( Read more... )

lets travel down to the sea together ( Read more... )