A crazy idea came upon me threw a dream i think it was to update this journal, im such a smartie. Well life hmm...let not talk ablout that right now i much like my imaginary world i made for myself. well i feel that at this point of my life has been a failure and i dont know or see the future as being so bright. Ive ben trew alot recently and ( Read more... )

So yes my life has changed recently. I feel like going into the army sometimes, im sure id do well in that enviroment, i dont need to think for myself anymore. Alas i never do it even with proper cause but maybe soon if nothing else presents itself too me. Unfortinately i feel my options are wearing thin and i need to make some sort of a dection. ( Read more... )

What have i become? I used to be lovely. I used to be cute and loveable. What has scorned me so that the thought of myself sickends me. Is it the failure of life i have undergone but i have time thats what i always think. What can make me happy these days...i dont know i used to know but that was awile back. Am i having a manic moment or am i fully ( Read more... )

To follow my path i once wrtien, to hold myself back just to follow my foolish path of understanding. who will break these chains of fear, none because i shut you out so easily. So when i look at my foolish thoughts and my dreary exsitance i only wonder why do i limit myself once again when i can florish into my own understanding of what life and ( Read more... )

That which is done out of love always takes place beyond good and evil ( Read more... )

So i'm starting this thing again it's been years and years since i had one. well i have to remember how to use this because it looks like crap right now so i should be doing some remodling n stuff. MY day has been uneventful and Counter strike is slowly taking over my life. I should get out and play some basketball exersize makes me feel better. ( Read more... )