I need a few good books
But nothing interesting, I’d like to feel dead for a week
And sleep like I’m already gone

Walk around the house,
Tearing all the mirrors down
While I’m at it, I’ll smash the windows, too
Then retreat to my room,
Throw my sheets around me
Blanket for the sky,
My oh my, what a mess am I...AZ was tight! The Grand Canyon, the ( Read more... )

So last night my date to the gay bar for a drag show canceled cause he had to work a 14+ hour shift at the hospital ( Read more... )

there's good news and bad news ( Read more... )

I planned out something to say to you, but I deleted it. I'm too tired to start drama. In your depression you didn't even realize what you were saying but don't worry, I did. I've seen this spiraling for awhile now and it's just not looking like it'll stop any time soon ( Read more... )

I don't want to sob story about my life and ask for pity, but seriously, when is this shit going to stop? Why is it that I get screwed over? I must have a "bail on me" stamp plastered across my forehead cause there's no other explanation. I dealt with this shit all through this school year. I got bailed on for other girls, for other friends, and ( Read more... )

you may have made it, but I stole it.

So, if you go to my myspace and you go down to my heroes section, I have eleven heroes. Up until Thursday night I had met/know 2 of them (mom and liz) and I've seen another two of them in person (Max and Chris) and I'll be seeing Ben in July. But Thursday, I actually got to meet one who didn't give birth to me or go to high school with me. I met ( Read more... )

When this crumbles down upon you... I will have nothing to say. There will be nothing left to say cause you will have heard it all.

you'll have to learn this lesson on your own

Why am I being phased out? Seriously, just be honest with me. It's alot better to hear the truth up front than find it out later when you have a lame excuse. If you don't want to tell me where you're going, don't. Don't tell me a half truth ( Read more... )

I don't want to be the center of attention cause when I do want to be and I get it, I hate it. I hate to have people worried about me, but I like when they care enough to notice something's up. I go out of my way for people who couldn't give a shit and I still don't know why I do that. To some I'm a really caring, kind, and generous person. To ( Read more... )