adam: you were right. cutting is a release.
ami: ...what. why did you do that.
adam: i'm tired of being a shadow in everyone elses' lives.
ami: but you're not in mine.
adam: it sure feels like it. i helped you through your big thing, and then i'm kicked to the curb.
ami: no you weren't.
adam: we drifted. you hardly talked to me. if that's not a sign ( Read more... )

i like this not having a job business, because it means i can carry on with my massive amounts of self destruction ( Read more... )

so apparently that last entry was completely null and void, because i am now surfacing ( Read more... )

remind me not to combine these things in constant fashion for two days straight ( Read more... )

i can't remember half this week because coworkers convinced me to go drinking on a weeknight, which in turn leads to showing up at work still drunk and/or high the next day ( Read more... )

i haven't bought smokes because i'd rather buy food and booze ( Read more... )

wow this one song by stars just reminded me of minus the bear, but on a slightly softer sounding scale.

moving on.


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so i got a job, but i'm nowhere near as thrilled as i should be because of the following ( Read more... )

i remember being led down the hospital hallways, zig-zagging deeper into the basement towards emergency. i'm carrying a box of kleenex, hanging onto someone's arm that i vaguely recognize as being my mother's. all i can focus on is the yellow line that divides the hallway; like a high-way except for foot traffic. keep to the right if you're heading ( Read more... )

FUCK BITCHES, GET MONEY, SMOKE TREES

i would really like to get high today but i'm supposed to meet mum
for supper tonight sigh.

i haven't even smoked in like, two weeks. double sigh.