well the last couple days have been really good, surpisingly. me ang julie havent been fighting and have been getting along just great. my anxiety has been winding down, which makes me oh so happy. i find that being with julie is intoxicating to say the least, still after these passed months weve been together i still find my self just staring ( Read more... )

i just spent about 6 hours of my 7 hour work day having an anxiety attack. it didnt stop, it still hasnt stopped. what the fuck. i felt like complete ass the entire day. i dropped my math class, i saw julie for about 30 minutes (that really sucked, i wanted to see her so badly. for some reason shes the only thing that can help me with anxiety, when ( Read more... )

i hate agruing, its the worst feeling ever. its when you know that its not going to go anywhere but you still keep at it. then a resolution, fallowed by more arguing. ive really had it with arguing, im really trying not too anymore. from the deepest spot in my heart i try. but my emotiont just seem to get the best of me everytime. i need to find a ( Read more... )

julie and i got into it huge last night. but we made up so all is good and right in the world. im not sure why but last night has given me a new sense of reguvination on julies and mine relationship. i dont really know how to explain it but i want to make her proud of me by doing what i said im gonna do. i dont want us to fuck up any more. it got ( Read more... )

i seem to have started this entry with nothing to say. it s weird how you have so much to say about so many things but when you go to put words on a page nothing seems to shoot out ( Read more... )

i feel so alienated right now, i have no diea wy. i woke this morning with this feeling of lonilness and anxiety. it is like extreme depression, yet i am not down on myslef and i am not depressed. i just feel like nothing matters right now. i dont seem to care about anything. i wanna go and do somehting with someone just so i can be with someone ( Read more... )

i got a job at panama bay.

morgan left, and i'm sad.

julie has got a lot on her mind, i want to help, but she doesnt want to talk about it. but its ok. when she feels comfterable well talk.

i want a gig with inspecotr so bad.

the title sums it up ( Read more... )

incase you didnt already know me and julie are engaged, i popped the question a few days ago. i havent updated in a while but here it is. plus youve probaly already heard the news comeing down the food change. apparently news travels fast ( Read more... )

my back hurts and i have work in an hour. it sucks being an old man ( Read more... )