IM STILL HERE!! HOLEY SHIT! PHEW! ha. nah. well actaully. like always, only a few things in life keep me here. that would be, you know who. um and umm you know and uhhh well feeling comfortable more often then usaully. I just want to let everyone know, that effort can do and mean alot. Even though most people put effort into an endless hole, even ( Read more... )

uhhh im still alive. fuck. and um. well. everyone knows, mom, just about everyone, and ever sense then, i think im loseing is, phyiscally, i keep hallicanating and having pyshcotic breaks. o.O for anyone whos found this and is totally lost, im talking about my fucking scars, deeper then just anybodies. just a blissful attempt to take my life, twice ( Read more... )

yes, today is the frist hardcore rain, and might i say its damn splended, for some reason i dont feel alone anymore when it rains...rains too stay. also today is the frist day of this year that i didnt take a shiower...boy do i feel inspired!

afterall this fun, and lost, i will no longer be here....

it about time i finally updated..i still love that guy chris...i still love chris, but im better now, everything is pretty much neutral, i miss him like a bitch and i wish i could be with him everyday. Thanks for him, im still alive and much more of a happier person than i ever have been in my life.If it wasnt for him, i wouldnt be who i am now. ( Read more... )

All i have to say is that,,FUCK YOU MOTHER FUCKER...yea and also ive never had a journal or diray and that i HATE writeing....but i figured that if i wrote in here mybe someone would read it and relate or something like that..i dont know.. well todays been crap. ive been reading this one guys journal over and over all the time for four months now ( Read more... )