I think you've reached a peak in your depression when you can no longer cry about things. You are bound to fail. Hell.

On earth
but you keep living it anyway with a false sense of hope. Its not getting better, but that whole value sense of a lost religion is ingrained within you. So. you must endure your suffering.

I'm pretty sure I killed my personality. I've been dead for years.

okay, so- I think I'm going to go back to not liking people ( Read more... )

i amount to nothing but an ugly, fat piece of shit that's going nowhere.

theres the awful truth.

i don't know why i am still alive. life got a little bit better after the accident... but its back to "normal" and i'm so tired of it. i feel like i am completely alone inside my head and i can't get out. i can't get rid of my addictions... and i have nothing to look forward to except things staying the same way. i cant force myself to do anything ( Read more... )

i really need to find myself again. i've really spiraled out into nothing and nowhere... and i used to be comforted by the idea that i was actually something different even if i was alone. now i'm just like every other lonely, unhappy person out there... there's no comfort in that.

seizures oct. 2, 2008 ( Read more... )

I lack an affectionate side / I care too deeply to show it on the surface.
Maybe that doesn't make sense...

i really only like the ones that i know are going to hurt me. when i do like one that is.

and i've come to the conclusion that i'm a drunk. a shameful one.
everyone already figured out that one I'm sure.

I've finally crashed to what appears to be the bottom.

the social movement is back on ( Read more... )