i cant use this account anymore. i'll tell you my new one at school, okay?

i had major news this morning after a little "incident". so i messaged Mona on myspace on my phone because i just HAD to tell her. i knew she'd care and help me out. And then i called my cousin because i was a blabbering idiot....   there is also one sophomore who isss ssooooooooooo annoyingggg. so i moved back to my old seat in HTML near Ali and ( Read more... )

i honestly dont know what to feel right now. there's just so much going on and everyone's too busy, and so i cant call anyone. i just need to vent because i've been holding everything in for the past month. i still cant really talk to my cousin about it, but i always used to talk to Woody about my secret, and he hasnt been picking up his phone. so ( Read more... )

okay so my family knows that my uncle IS going to die. there's nothing we can do anymore and now we're waiting for him to pass. everyone's saying to give it 2 or 3 weeks, but i say a week. idk. i can do funerals, but NOT wakes. they scare the shit outta me. i cant just pray and kneel in front of a dead body for 2 minutes. i think its scary, gross, ( Read more... )

so im done crying. lol. not really. still majorly upset and i have no idea who to talk to since i cant really talk to my family about it. im trying to get my mind off it this very second. breaking down into tears isnt going to help the situation at all. i'll be happy once im in html on thursday.

but honestly, this whole thing has made me more aware ( Read more... )

im so stressed outtt. urgh.

mad short hair ^_^

tu sabes que te extrano??

tu sabes que te quiero??

tu sabes que quiero tu voz??

tu sabes que quiero cuando te llamo??

tu sabes que quiero ser con tu??

tu sabes que creo sobre tu todos los dias de la semana??

tu sabes que seras en Massachusetts si me quieras??

por favor, sabes que te quiero.

he's not mine and he never will be. i've never loved someone so much before. I havent known him long, but boy, he knows me more than i know myself. i even told him i loved him. i just blurted it out. i just wish it was possible, but it just isnt. i wish he truly understood how i feel about him. he lives like 3 hours away in springfield. oh, and my ( Read more... )

Note to self: Stop kidding yourself. Although you love him, he doesn't eve like you.

Love,

Me