well, i did it. i broke up with oscar. i didn't want to tell anyone yesterday because i didn't think i'd have the strength to do it. but i did. i think christy's love gave me the strength. yep, i know, everything was great with us but i've discovered something. i'm still in love with christy. i thought maybe i just had a crush on her or made myself ( Read more... )

YAY! i have about 5 different numbers for hector but none of them ever worked. i found one that does! i was forgetting to press 1 before his area code, i guess, and i tried it tonight and it worked! i'm soooo happy that i got to talk to him. he talked for a little over an hour before his phone started dieing, but, yeah. i'm so glad i got to hear ( Read more... )

i cannot really talk about the situation right now, but lets just say my little perfect world i was in with oscar is about to collapse. all will come crashing down, and i don't know if i'll come out alive. i hope i do though because the reward will definitely be worth-while.

Fear is what drives us all ( Read more... )

I can't believe this. how is it possible that i missed him? Hector went to Six flags w/ his sister (tanya), tanya's best friend (cynthia), cynthia's sister (christy), and christy's best friend (tyler). i thought i couldn't go because tyler was going. but apparently, there were 4 extra tickets! but i don't think tanya knew that. but when hector's ( Read more... )

*this is definitely the song of the day. i couldn't stop listening to it. it reminds me of someone. hope someone gets it. it's pretty easy ( Read more... )

i screwed up again. this time i hurt my mom. i went out to our spot in the desert w/ oscar and he stayed there way too late and i walked him home and i got home and about 5 minutes later my mom walks in the house. i thought she was sleeping but apparently she was out in the desert looking for me. i don't know, i thought she'd figure that i'd get ( Read more... )

*i wonder if anyone knows this one ( Read more... )

well, i got myself into trouble again. i'm so dumb. mandy, if you read this, i'm really sorry, and please don't hate me. i just can't help it. ok, so the other night i tweeked w/ sarah, but just a little. just one line. i miss it. and i wasn't planning on telling oscar because he hates tweekers and he already told me he didn't want me doing it. so ( Read more... )

*hahaha, i bet no one will get this one, but i love this song ( Read more... )