whoa. an interesting conversation just took place between this guy matt and i. he's a *very* attractive fellow a friend introduced me to because like me, he's gay but disinterested in your typical gay anything. we had a long discussion about how we're looking for serious relationships and all that stuff, and uhh, well... we're kinda looking for the ( Read more... )

it hurt so bad and i gave in. i hope it wasn't enough to lag me...

being treated like shit pisses me the fuck off. when will i find ONE FUCKING FRIEND who isn't hell bent on making me feel like shit? just one. it'll never fucking happen. there must be something wrong with me. i'll take the blame, why not. fuck me, i'm just a jerk. i hope every single person i know outside of my family never talks to me again so ( Read more... )

the cold bud ice sits on the desk before me, condensation glistening in the warm sunlight pouring through the open window ( Read more... )

work tonight, yuck. i don't feel the best but that's partly my own damn fault... too much food, drink, and celebration while mom's been gone. i haven't even been celebrating anything, i've just been sitting around relaxing when i'm not around town. friends are coming to smoke at the house tonight after i get off, i'm glad. it's gonna be so chill, i ( Read more... )

what a nite. worked till close, then i saw a number of friends and had a good time. eventually i ended up running into alex unexpectedly and we hung out all nite. we spent most of the wee hours of the morning alone together and some interesting conversation took place. i brought up some stuff that needed to be addressed only i ended up more ( Read more... )

whoa i just passed out for a few hours without meaning to. i was tired... blah i'm fucking sick still. i woke up with a cold or severe allergies or something, and i feel just as shitty now as i did this morning. my nose has been running all day and i've been coughing up all kinds of shit, it's gross. i know when i fall back asleep i'm gonna wake up ( Read more... )

i had work today and it was so awesome... all we did was stand around and talk about being gay, drinking, and cool shit like that in between customers all nite. the public wasn't too bitchy either so it was a lot of fun. alex called and woke me up wanting to hang out before work but i was running late so i had to decline. we had talked the nite ( Read more... )

i'm waiting for the "just kidding".

"as each day dies, are we living on to the next or passing on in the twilight?"