i hate feeling alone... my sister and my brother-in-law just moved out and caitie left for cleveland... and I don't know exactly what i'm supposed to feel right now... cause i'm happy that my sister got her own place but i'm upset cause she won't be here when i come home at night... I'm happy that cait will finally get to see her grandparents but i ( Read more... )

so...i haven't written in here in almost a year and I looked back on earlier entries and wow...just wow... alot of entries of cait and I and it brings back alot of memories... I've now realized that I want nothing more out of life except love, happiness, and peace within myself...mostly love ( Read more... )

i don't know what's been up with me lately...i've been really out of it i guess... i'm not sure...i do know one thing though... i don't know what the hell caitie and i are anymore...it's been really wierd for us... i don't know really how to explain it... but i know i just want to stab myself almost everytime i see her...and it's not her i know... ( Read more... )

nothing really happened on sunday... i was kind of glad... i can't even really remember what i did...oh that's right.....i went to go see caitie early in the morning we fell asleep in her bed... for just a little while....the comfort of laying there beside her with my arms wrapped around her just gives me this feeling that i can't even explain...it ( Read more... )

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i was afraid of you ( Read more... )

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ok I must admit that last entry was a little weird and maybe one of two people I talked about in there is going to be a lil bit mad...but oh well... now you read what happens when I get into those deep thought journal entries...they get serious and stupid... so anyways...I had a lovely day today I sat around with caitie...and my sister's back from ( Read more... )

sometimes I wonder...or I try to create this different picture in my head of how my life would be if I didn't meet some of the people I call friends now.. I wonder if I would be the same girl yearning for someone to notice me...sitting on a computer day and night just waiting to find someone to have me... telling people these stupid lies to get ( Read more... )

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