I'm pretty happy lately. Let's keep this going.

I stood there staring. I'm not particularly sure what it is that had grasped my attention due to the fact that whatever my eyes were capturing had no effect on my thoughts. I was simply . . . staring. Do other people take the time to think about nothing? Do other people take the time to think about the inner-workings of the universe, human ( Read more... )

Well, for all of you that don't know already, I had to move back to Lakeland because of money problems up in Orlando. I was really bummed at first, felt like I failed at living away from home on my own. But, moving back has been pretty cool. I'm happy and I'd like to stay that way. Going back to Orlando? Not sure. But what I am sure of is that I'm ( Read more... )

How can people be so happy being and doing nothing worthwhile? Am I the one missing the message, trying to be something great so hard that I'm missing this empty happiness? I don't want empty happiness. I wonder everyday why I am the way I am, why do I think like I do, why do I look at other people and see their drunken smiles and question why I ( Read more... )

And then, one day in April, I wasn't even there,
For there were many things I didn't know.

Every year this seems to happen. I walk outside one day, usually in March, and the sun covers me in light and I feel renewed. The heat hangs in the air again, as it did and does for the majority of the year in Florida. Those few months when it is cold seem to chill my soul, colder every year. But, with no fail, the weather changes me, I feel ( Read more... )

There have been a few times in my life where I have felt I was stuck in a rut, for lack of a better phrase. But, they seem to get worse as I get older. I am in one now, and it is weird, because I AM happy, not depressed in any way like I used to be. I simply feel like I'm spinning my tires, again, lack of a better phrase. I don't think there is ( Read more... )

It takes time to figure out what you want to do in this world. It takes some years, even whole lifetimes to finally realize why they're here. Kids don't know. They hear tales from their elders speaking of great things they've done and what they've achieved. But to me, those stories were only second best to the real stories, the ones where your dad ( Read more... )

So, we had to end the fast early. Previously, JT and I thought that this endeavor would save us money, but when Grade B Maple Syrup costs 20$ a bottle, and the bottles last you less than 2 days for 2 people, we realized different. We ended up going 6 days, but I feel like I got out of it what I needed. Time to think was the biggest thing. I owe a ( Read more... )

Time flew today. Unlike the previous 3 days, today was pretty awesome. Although last night sucked ( I had bad stomach cramps, I think that was the hump I had to get over ) I woke up feeling like a champ. I only had 6 hours of sleep but, damn did I feel good. I cleaned my room and my bathroom and did all of my laundry, which is pretty insane because ( Read more... )