How do a few simple words change everything you've been thinking? Everything you thought was true? Why am I letting it get to me? Why am I contemplating that decision? Why wasn't all this said long ago? I now feel torn. Completely torn. Why do I let love control most of my actions, most of my decisions? Am I completely insane? fuck it I'm going to

Today I realized that I haven't the slightest idea of where I'm going with my life. I feel like I'm spiraling out of control. Like my life is absolutely pointless. I don't know if I want to be nurse anymore or what. I feel stuck. I want to get the hell out of this house, but I don't have any money to get out of here. I'm sick of being here. I need ( Read more... )

yea so today I'm driving along in the car listening to good ol' blink 182 and "miss you" comes on. one of dylan and my songs. I smiled and laughed. I remembered how we used to sing together in the car and talk about our random thoughts and nothing else mattered. I remembered feeling completely "at home" with him. remembered that a year ago, we used ( Read more... )

well I have completely fucked up. I now have another guy completely head over heels for me. again. fucking A. I don't know how this happens. There is no sex, no kissing, no touching, no nothing. and I have this guy absolutely nutzo about me. what the fuck. seriously I liked him a little bit. We have fun together. But I only want him as a friend and ( Read more... )

yeah so I'm totally confused right now about everything. I have fallen for someone. someone who I know would not be the right one. but why? something in my heart screams at me everytime I meet someone new. my heart screams for him. longs for him. I've fallen so fuckin hard. and I dont know if we would ever be together. I could be with someone and ( Read more... )

As she looked into the water her life rippled by. The stories of her loves and losses reaching to her feet. Reliving that cold hell again and again. Tears fall from her great mysterious eyes. What was so perfect, so real, all became a lie. She trusted she cared she gave him her heart. The boy promised her that he would never drop it and let it ( Read more... )

wow I just realized something. I'm 20. I am fucking 20 years old. I realize this at midnight. The being an adult just slapped me in the face. I no longer have that teenager mark. I dont feel 20. I still like that bubbly obnoxious ready for anything 17 year old. I also realized how much I miss Dylan. I miss him more than anything. I know that's not ( Read more... )

Why is it that I can fix everyone else's problems, but I can't figure out the first thing to do about my own problems?? My problems and stresses at the moment include ( Read more... )

I'm a professional fuck up. I dont know what to do about the situation I'm in. I mean it is ALL MY FAULT. I'll be the first to admit that. It started with one and now I have two. I like them both, but I see myself with one more than the other. I really do not want a boyfriend right now. I just ended a three and a half year relationship and now I ( Read more... )

I figured it out. I know why I want to be single and why I love it so much ( Read more... )