Things have been good and alright i guess since i wrote last. The hole kelly being across the country is still pretty tough. Just trying to get used to not seeing her and her trying to start a new life there is hard to grasp. I know that she loves me and that she will not hurt me, but the distance is painful. I don't have anything to do so i sit in ( Read more... )

It has been 7 days since i last saw the most precious sight ever. This week has been weird. i worked everyday for the first time in a month or so. That helped out with being lonely. Hung out with the guys on tuesday night for the last time until who knows. Good time. Wednesday and thursday did absolutely nothing after work. Just came home and spent ( Read more... )

So today really hasn't been the best of days for me. I have lost it. In less than 1 week my life leaves. I don't know what i am going to do when kelly leaves next week. It is going to hit me like a ton of bricks, and it already is starting. Everything that i have ever imagined in a girl, in someone that i want to be completely serious about she has ( Read more... )

Well i haven't written anything down in such a long time. Everything has been going good. I actually quit my job...thank God...and i just got a new one, but i don't know if i want to take it. I should and i probably will. I have been spending so much time with kelly. That has been amazing. This weekend alone we were with each other every night ( Read more... )

Check it out...i am "the natural" thats awesome. Well i have to pick my parents up from the airport on sunday. I have really enjoyed this week without them. I miss them, but at the same time i know they are having a great time which they deserve and i am having a great time which i deserve. I am now 20. That sucks. i am so old now. At least it ( Read more... )

Your Seduction Style: The Natural


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Life is great. Kelly and me worked everything out from before which is amazing. I really don't know what i would do without her. Every couple has there ups and downs, but how we were able to come out of it really shows me that we got something special. We have been having such a great time together. Last week she went over by my older friends house ( Read more... )

I don't know if i actually have real friends. Or at least people that really know me. I would think that guys that i have grown up with since we were kids would know me the best, but thats far from it. I called nate today to tell him about last nights events and how i told kelly about the situation. Well i told him the whole story bc he didn't even ( Read more... )

So i am the worst person in the world. I hurt the most important person in the world to me. The one person i promised not to hurt, promised not to make feel upset, and the one person that trusted me. The only person that has trusted me. I am completely empty inside bc of what happened and the feelings that others feel bc of this. Kelly, i have ( Read more... )

Ok my day can't get any worse now. I had written a journal down and i hit something and it completely erased everything. I don't know why. Whatever i need to get the fuck out of my house and do something.