I feel sick, i haven't felt the way i feel right now in a while. I have been thinking about kelly all night and everything that has to do with her. SHe realy is my true source of happiness and i am really thinking of going down there soon. i can't handle being alone anymore. this is harder then when she went down the first time. i am sure its bc i ( Read more... )

Its been a while since i have updated, and its been about a year since i started writing in these. Thinking back over the past year, i realized why i started writing in my journal. It was bc i had so many feelings for kelly at the time and i didn't want to freak her out by telling her everything at once...She meant alot to me right away and i knew ( Read more... )

Its been a while since i have updated. It actually hurts a little to type, so i am unsure how much i will get out. I will start off by just saying that i may have torn some ligaments in my left thumb playing football and that is why it hurts. On a brighter note, Kelly comes home a week from tomorrow. I am extremely excited to pick her up from the ( Read more... )

Tonight is the last night i sleep alone...at least for a couple of days. I fly out tomorrow afternoon to go see the one i love. I am starting to get real nervous. I have never been a fan of flying. The first time i did it i was alright i guess, but i had someone i knew sitting next to me. This will be a nice treat. I really think that i am just ( Read more... )

Have you ever wanted something so bad that it hurts to not have it? Have you ever needed something just as much as food, water, shelter, clothing, and not be able to get it. I do that everyday. That is my everyday life without the one i love. I have found my soulmate, the 1, the 1 that i think of first thing every morning, the 1 that i think about ( Read more... )

Well its been exactly one week since i have been able to kiss her. Last weekend was everything i thought it was going to be...simply amazing. The time that i spent with kelly last weekend will never be forgotten. It seriously was the best weekend i have ever had, and ever looked forward to. The wedding was a great time also. I really really really ( Read more... )

Haven't updated since sunday i think. Not a whole lot has happened. Everything with kelly and me are great. I had my first psych/math class. The teacher is a nice old chinese lady, which means you cant understand a word she says. Had a Spanish test on wednesday and i aced it. I have this whole new outlook about school. I actually study, i actually ( Read more... )

I WISH YOU WERE HERE! I tried something new the past 2 days. I surrounded my self with my friends. Last night i had people over at my house...nothing big, few friends, a few drinks, and no kelly. Today i had football. Thinking ok...play some football and get my mind of things...nope, everytime i looked to the sideline i could picture kelly sitting ( Read more... )

I am so freaking tired. I am exhausted in general. I have been working so much lately, and i can't complain one bit bc i need the money. I am tired of being alone. I am lost without kelly. I really am. Plus i just found out that the one thing that i was proud of myself about and its not going to happen. I will not be graduating from COD this year, ( Read more... )

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