January: fresh new year to work with. nothing has changed.begin drinking way too much.

February: valentines day was cute. 6 & half anniversary suprise from David.

March: David continues to work at best buy i continue work at Omni. Find out sister kendra is pregnant.

April: landlord pissing us off and becoming snoopy. Chrystal's baby shower.

May: ( Read more... )

i am in love with last weekend! friday night billy sac-attack-on-crack came over and we put up our christmas tree. he's like a brother to david. been with the family since i've been with them..little more than 7 years..drank it up. billy spilled beer on his pants and it looked like he pissed himself and he had to go pick up this girl. saturday ( Read more... )

i am a 25 year old child who has accomplished so little but have made it worth so much!

there is nothing in my past i regret doing. i would never take back any foul friendships, misconstrued relationships, or childish behavior. i wouldn't be who i am now if i took anything back. i wouldn't be me.

HOWEVER, i have one recent thing that i have done ( Read more... )

The Siege

i need some kind of verbal conclusion.

i know the white lined truth to this blacken travisty.

words to cure my stable sanity.

so many phrases to use that i don't hear.

i can't hear what the men in black can't fear.

i don't understand how they believe this.

how am i suppose to live with the others.

how is the mentality of theive's mutual ( Read more... )

at work. no day off. lissa bought the movie tickets for tonight. 11 of us are going. mat & anne are going. i talked jason into going to but since the movie theater is new, has leather seats, in centereach, the tickets are $13.75 !! jason said for that amount of money he'll go but better get his balls licked for that much. david said he'll go if the ( Read more... )

leaving work in an hour. can't wait to get home, kick off ma flip-flops & relax. david's got work from 4:30pm till after 1am. so it's just me and puggie accompanied with as many bud lights ma itty bitty body can hold. last night david & i finally saw "the devil's rejects". it was decent for a part 2 but "house of 1,000 corpses" was amazing. ( Read more... )

i hurt more than usual lately. i had to take off of work. those few know why. i did something not worth talking about because it sounds weak. i wish i felt pain. i want to feel something that deep. whatever i have thought i have encountered is false. no one knows the real way i am now. it all ruins me till forever. i thought things would get better ( Read more... )

monday: wake up at 7:20am. cigarette. shower. dress. drive to work. leave work at 4pm(exactly). get home at 4:21pm. kiss david "hello" & "goodbye". he leaves for work. i sit with a beer and a couple of movies. occational bubble bath. music blasting. candles lit. thoughts amist. lot-o-beer causes me to want to sleep.

tuesday: wake up at 7:20am. ( Read more... )

i know i am a nasty bitch/cunt/ass hole/inconsiderate dick...but a slut/whore/skank i am definatly not. i agree i have said and have done my share of bitch moves. i can apologize for them, but honestly i am not sorry for them completly. there is always a deep rooted reasoning to my actions which makes me consider what i do, not that horrid. before ( Read more... )

memories are loved past's......

.......pain is just that.