NEW CHANGES ARE A COMIN'!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK!!!

this whole week i have been so depressed and angry that i dont know what to do anymore. i have been surrounded by the most HOMOPHOBIC people that ive ever come into contact with. it hurts me. like seriously it does. i know im only 19 but it feels like ive accomplished so much in this short time that ive realized that im gay. it may not seem like ( Read more... )

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CHRYSTAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i know this wish is late but no worries i didnt forget, just cant get online that much. but i hope to see u soon. love ya mucho!!!!!

well lately ive had some spare time to just think. and when i have spare time to think, its no so good. i usually think of all things bad. it sux. one thing that i can tell u is that ive thought about how much i really have a craving for Shadiah. its agonizing knowing that i cant have her. its not that i want her, now its that i absolutely NEED her ( Read more... )

ok so on saturday after i got off work i drove out to claremeont to see Shadiah. it was great fun. though our time was limited it was great anyways. we went to a restaurant that was actually on campus.it was nice. they get a lot of business. but it was good. we sat outside and talked for awhile. i loved it. so many things to talk about but so many ( Read more... )

ok so im back at work right now. im in the office, its crazy i can say that, the other day i was talking to my mom and i was telling her, "i havent left the office yet, but ill call u when i do. it was crazy, i never thought it would be this soon to where i could say "no im still tied up at the office" i havent said that yet but i will ( Read more... )

ok so i got a new job, well another job. its at the same place, but now im in the office. so mon-fri i work security 6am-2pm and then in "the office" i work sat-sun 9am-5pm. i even get 2 breaks and a lunch, which by the wya ive been so busy havent taken wither, but my lunch isnt until 1 or 2. but yeah so far its kool. no problems here. but yeah. ( Read more... )

ok so i know its early but i already know what i want for my birthday so heres my list.

*the L word-complete season 1
*the L word-complete season 2
*anything Raiders
*more tattoos
*anything that has thought put into it

see its not much but yeah i just really want all that stuff, so i will get it one way or another.

this is a better pic of my new tattoo

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