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[drunkwithpines]

the latest strategy is nothing less than an intervention. i am wanted there, and from the time i was told, i have been harboring this sourness in my gut. i want to opt out, i want to be passive. i may be the only one whose view of the benefits of long-term sequestered care is occluded by sympathy to a disabling degree. i keep thinking of all

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[thejam]

it was a fantastic surprise to get to enjoy floats with you and eran yesterday

i sincerely hope everything turns out for the best ;)

[drunkwithpines]

that was good, and good luck for me, just what i needed. how many conversations have you had that include ass-rapists, sucking at the organ, and crying in public?

thanks for the good wishes.

[alextexas]

i know i dont really know you; i dont know if such empathy and sympathy is appropriate or even expressible. but i understand. the strain to employ some sort of logic in a situation defined and motivated, in essence, by the lack of it; mothers, this singular relationship, the deepness of it, and the difficulty to separate from it at all. i hear you, really. y

[drunkwithpines]

appropriate, sure, and you expressed it quite gracefully. thanks.
i keep praying, euphemistically, since i don't pray, for some temporary detachment to tide me over, make me enough of an automaton to get the job done without a blubbering meltdown. i am imagining myself there ineptly reading aloud from written notes, trying to stay hardline with my voice shaking. there should be a prophylactic medication for mother-sensitivity, like a malaria pill.

[rambert]

Hmmm. My usual wiseass commentary seems somehow insufficient. I'm sorry. If you tiptoe around the shitpile long enough you'll find flowers, I promise. You're welcome to e-mail me, though it seems you've said your piece here.

And were you at the hospital for yourself? I hope not.

[drunkwithpines]

thanks, really.
your so-called wiseass commentary, if you can find the way there without tripping over your morals, would certainly be welcome. but do not hurt yourself trying.
you are much quieter when serious, but no less appreciated.
and no, i wasn't in fact at the hospital; my doctor's office is next door to it. i was there begging for subscription rugs.

[anonymous]

me with nothing to say
and you in yr autumn sweater

[drunkwithpines]

hello mister pee.

fucking heartbreaking on a bike

[lostcosmonaut]

this is going to sound inappropriate, but I hope not to you: I am going to a party tonight in D.C., and you should come w/. I would have invited you any way, BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT AN AFTERTHOUGHT. We'll talk. And drink and confide. You can be as quiet or as loud as you want; I'll be yr mirror. E-mail me or whatever. Who is this yo la tengo business?--mza.

the light on your door to show that you're home

[drunkwithpines]

th continuous party is never inappropriate. it's just not always viable.
but tonight, yes, thank you, i'll gladly come wif. call me this evening.

the ylt quoter is a good friend of mine, just telling me he is there.