i think my friends are ignoring me, biut i dont know why. what did i do? i dont think i did something to them that could make them act this way. i dont know, maybe i am just being a stupid emo again. or maybe i am just a loser who can not keep friends. oh well, peace mother fuckers.

i needed to get away from all my problems and just carelesly hang out with some friends. i went to the mall with sarah, jenifer, anna, beccy, jerry, josh, and peyton. the other guys were such asses, so i just hung out with the girls. we all went to the movies to the ( Read more... )

i finaly got the balls to write brit the note telling her about my feelings to her. she'd probably not care, but oh well (i dont care). but maybe i'll be fortunate and she will think the same way about me. hey, i can hope. well, i'v patched up the situation between me and ellie tonight. she has been going through alot of shit and im just trying to ( Read more... )

today was really lame, all i could think of was brittany and ellie. why cant i do anything about/for them. I love them both, but they cant know that, either they dont know yet, or they know, but dont want me to know that i know. its a very complex situation. i dont really feel like typing the whole thing, but you can ask me online. anyways, i'v ( Read more... )