I really dont know if i can get through this last month of school. I just want to close my eyes and get through it. I feel terminally ill and not myself at all and I don't like it. Sadly, I am not at all excited for prom, more annoyed. I wish I was. But I dont have a date or dress. Whats the point? I really feel I am incapable of being liked ( Read more... )

Things have been odd lately and i don't know what to think of anything. I guess ill take it one day at a time. School is confusing enough i dont need life to get complicated on me too.

So I cant wait for june for so many reasons...I must say I really will be beyond sad by then because im not very good at saying bye.

PS March is a waste of a

People are so gay sometimes. and so involved in themselves. People i love. It makes me mad. I wish i knew who my friends were and who aren't. Sometimes im just very unsure.

I'm excited for this week to come. I have a feeling it'll be a good week. i should start sticking to my priorities. I procrastinate way too much. Not good.

Christmas was nothing special. New years was really bad. I can't say I've ever had a truly good birthday. I don't know what else there is to look forward to. So its 2007 and everything happens this year supposedly. It like the beginning and the end. The end of highschool. The beginning of something totally different. I must say I'm excited. As much ( Read more... )

I just really don't know anymore. ill start with school. it still sucks. the end. college. just one of those things that are in every conversation with anyone these days. While i hate it when people are always asking me where im going what im doing with my life because i just dont know but at the same time thats all i can think about. I can't tell ( Read more... )

Other than the fact that im failing every subject except art, im pretty good. I cant wait until all my applications and everything is out and done with for good. Until then i feel like the clock is chasing after me and its quite stressful. I hate deadlines. And I just want to enjoy senior year.

It's been kind of hot here. A nice hot though. I went to Sea World the other day. It was entertaining and all. I just love being splashed head to toe by sea lions and seals and dolphins and that whale Shamu with salty fishy water. Great fun. I've been to Huntington beach a few times. The waves are incredible. Whats more incredible are the surfer ( Read more... )

Im in california and its really nice here. I just love the palm trees and just about everything but i feel like im missing out alot of my summer back home. I can't be greedy but an update now and then wouldnt hurt. Idk i guess being away is like disappearing for good. I miss everyone still especially kaitlin. I went to the hollywood walk of fame ( Read more... )

Its been a good week. And all i can say is i love kaitlin leigh jarvis for sharing it with me. She's a big highlight of my life. Everything this week has worked out for like the first time ever. This summer has been all around good and i can't say i have much to worry about yet so much at the same time. like i should probably start my summer ( Read more... )

I still do go on lj alot even if it doesnt seem so. Just not much to post about lately. although today was a good day. swimming at kaitlins with danielle and deb was nice, it just made summer so official. the bug bites. watermelon. eating outside. short shorts. swimming although it was a little chilly. but thats okay. kaitlin idk if you remember ( Read more... )