Am I actually contemplating this????????

It's hard to get around this one. Being told by a parent that one's life is broken is a tough thing to come to grips with.

A part of me believes her when she says it's not about how much I'm loved. But the 'not-good-enough' voice in the back of my head takes it and runs with it. I do know that she's right when she says that I'm a good person with ( Read more... )

Life happens to suck beyond belief today.

Gam zeh ya'avor.
Gam zeh ya'avor.
Gam zeh ya'avor.

Life is a process. Just moments. This moment will pass and another one will come.

So I'm sitting in this particular moment, realizing that I finally know what I want to do with myself professionally for the next few years - but having no particular attachment to WHERE that will actually take place ( Read more... )

After four years, a couple of months, etc.

Pending approval of, well, everyone. Including the Australian government.

With an acknowledgment that I may very well be certifiably insane.

With a finally- and irrevocably-admitted Zelenka obsession that will likely end up being my life's work.

I'm changing my topic - completely.

AAAARRGGHHHHHH.

I'm sorry, this is going to be a vague-post, and it can't go on Facebook.

Didn't I change my phone number to prevent EXACTLY this????

I'd forgotten how awful an end to a relationship feels. Especially one that meant so much to me.

I've now been in Australia for five years. Well, as of tomorrow, but I felt like doing this now. Quite a lot has happened in the last year. Most of it very good. Some of it bad. But that's how it goes every year - it's never all one or the other ( Read more... )

A brief hiatus from my LJ silence to announce the following ( Read more... )

It's a big question - what's happened in my life since November? This is fully seven months later ( Read more... )