I spent all day today crying. It's just *everything* right now. It's me. It's him. It's school. It's rehearsal, homework, workwork, Grand Chorus, KSO, money, singing ( Read more... )

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So... apparently I learn like a pendulum. He and I figured out yesterday (okay, I figured out... but he was involved) that after not talking for December, then trying to get things into a semblance of normalcy in January, that I went ahead and got too close... that's why my life sucks right now.

Fuck. I just miss him.

ohhh i don't regret that post at all. i meant every word of it. and in the midst of my CRAZY i think i worked some shit out.

and then we had a good "talk" at rehearsal.

ps, unrelated.

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Ohhhhhhkay. So, tell me why we've been DONEDONEDONEDONE for the better part of a month (I mean, I knew we were over a long time before that, but the words "I just don't want to be a big part of your life in *any* way" really seemed to make it real), and I can still fly off the handle at a single comment ( Read more... )

Ohhh living is SO hard ( Read more... )

Ohhhh shit. What the fuck is up, y'know?

Busy semester. Chorus manager position is lots of work. VSB is meh, it's fine. Dealing with the Steve thing being over... really processing that. Entertaining the idea of something new, maybe.

more later, i guess.

Well, I'm trying to be positive. I don't think it's possible for me to *stay* positive at the moment, but I'm hoping that more often than not I can force my pessimism into submission ( Read more... )

i'm really struggling right now, and i don't know what to do with it. i thought that time and space would make things easier... but i don't know that things are getting easier whatsoever. =-(

someone posted my favorite poem ever in one of my communities ( Read more... )