Almost 3:30... Wow. My sleep hasn't been like this since I was like... 11 or 12 or something. Up until I was that old I hardly slept. I waited til my parents were asleep then I just chilled out and did whatever til 4 or 5, then went to sleep til it was time for school. Then when I turned 12 I got sick and slept for a year straight. Then ( Read more... )

I have slept about three hours in the past few days. My sociophobia is increasing rapidly. I will not be leaving my apartment today. I have panic attacks at school. I don't think I can make it to NC. Even if I could drive in a straight line with no sleep, I am a nervous wreck lately and I would be a downer. I'm so sorry I have to say it the ( Read more... )

Yeah, I'm just sucking at life right now... I'm having a really hard time keeping up with school. I've been really scared about going out of my house and stuff. I don't know why. I don't even know if I'll be able to go out for Halloween tonight. I'm gonna try, hopefully by night time I'll feel better ( Read more... )

Oookay... Yup, it is officially fall. My mental health is fragmenting. That's a sure sign. This year, maybe instead of trying to keep sane, I'll just manage my craziness better. I suppose we'll see. This annual descent into craziness is kinda starting to get old ( Read more... )

So it's after 3AM. And I ought to be trying to sleep. But... I dunno. Is anyone else ever afraid to go to sleep? And it's really not so much the being asleep part I worry about, it's the waking back up part. That's the hardest part of the day. It's always a huge disappointment, waking up. But yeah ( Read more... )

So sometimes my neighbors move around in their apartments, but it sounds like they're walking around upstairs. It kinda freaks me out sometimes. But yeah ( Read more... )

So yeah. My weekend with Icky was a ton of fun. It all went pretty well. We had fun, talked about butts and stuff a lot ( Read more... )

Cant sleep, cant sleep, cant sleep. So Icky is going to be in Savannah tomorrow. I pick him up at the bus station. I am like freaking out. But so excited. Just cant sleep ( Read more... )

I'm watching a show on evolution. these are my favorite documentaries, usually, the ones on evolution and prehistoric man. Either that or apocalyptic shit. This one is good though, I've never seen it before. The dramatizations are really good. And it's impossible to make dramatizations of prehistoric man look good, but these are close. They ( Read more... )

What in the flying fuck is it about movies. They can be happy, sad, funny, scary, but no matter what, they always make my heart do funny things that hurt. I just watched Empire Records, and it made me cry. Fucking Empire Records. I get so mad at life, at movies. So upset. I mean, I'm fine right now. I'm kinda sad, kind of... pathetic, but I ( Read more... )