i can honestly say that i give up. i give up trying to be there with "certain people.... not on facebook", im done with my english class and trying to access the library network and having it say im Invalid. IM NOT FUCKING INVALID I AM A HUMAN BEING.... GODDAMN IT ( Read more... )

so i just got a lap top, kyle hoked me up with it. im on it now infact. i dont have internet at my house for it but i will soon. its a lot of fun. we watched a movie on it at OLMC today. it was a lot of fun. i have to see how to get it online at OCCC now, thats my thing to do tomorrow after my math test. should be an interesting thing todo because ( Read more... )

so this sucks. this is my first time being sick in like forever.
i have a sore throat and sinus problems.
i hope i feel better by this weekend, i have so much to do.
i dont want to go to class tomorrow either but i have to make
sure i have all my stuff in and hope that im passing.

well ganna go watch tv, at kyles. and drink the
"interesting"
tea that his ( Read more... )

ok so i realize that my last post was a bit emo, but it is how i feel. and i cant change that because god knows i have tried. it is hard when you only talk to 2 people, and only 1 of them 2 days a week. the other thing, people shouldnt take everything i wrote to heart. i was on a rant and i really didnt mean to piss anyone off, LJ is just a place ( Read more... )

ok so its been a long week. i spent all HALLOWEEN with kyle and kelsey. then went to work at OLMC and played with play dough with the little kids. its was actually a lot of fun doing that, i felt like a little kid again. only problem was that i was so sore from earlier that day..... (cant tell anyone unless i ABSOLUTELY trust them) well after i met ( Read more... )

i came home from south carolina to this? this shitty weather sucks, it was blue skies and warm weather and happyness down there; and now its grey skys and shitty things happening. tuesday i just wanted to die, everything sucked and my attitude has moved into wednesday. Im done planning life and trying to make everything fit into place. NOTHING ( Read more... )

i have fucked up my life once again. youd think i would be use tot his but im not, and i guess i havent learned much. but the only thing on my mind is the smell of blood, the taste of cigarretts, and the want of sleep after all that. the want to cry is over powering and i have a feeling it may win while im in class tomorrow. if i dont break down ( Read more... )

 home bored. starting to get a headache and i have class tomorrow and i want to go out and do somthing.
it sucks so much. i should be cleaning... or writing because i feel like im breaking down. but i dont have the ambition.
i might be going to the gym tonight with a teacher from OLMC but now that im home i cant focus.
i hope tomorrow is good since i ( Read more... )

ok so i had a very interesting weekend. saturday i worked and it was eh until zeeter showed up and wound up hanging out with me till i got off. i then drove out to mike k's and we all hung out. he let me play with his 29 dogs and i saw  a peacock. it was amazing. we then decided that going out to get food would be a good idea, and since i didnt ( Read more... )

ok so yesterday... i had to have my girl scout poster done
for my gold project and i was freaking out cause i didntt have
any of the pictures of my doing the project so i HAD to call
kyle and he came over and helped me put the pictures on
the board and then we went to councel in bloomingburg.
then we went to taco bell and ate, he decided that he wanted
( Read more... )