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Havent updated in awhile, nothing really interesting.
Mostly just been going to school and work at 3. I spend most of my free time with kyle because no one else really has time so its all good. we've been getting along so thats even better.
I spent the day before valentines day down in Jersey with some of my family which was nice because its the ( Read more... ) -
school and life
so schools been better. i finally got my books... it only took 3 weeks and some yelling and cursing; and some tears from being stressed out. my face broke out some during this time too because one of my teachers freaked out at me in class and i got even more stressed.
i dont talk to really anyone. there's no one i talk to in my monday class which ( Read more... ) -
ugh
i hate when im right.
especially when it comes to sleeping.
i knew i wouldnt be able to sleep.
kyle found me on the couch.
crying.
it just happens when i get anxiety.
i want to cry. a lot.
i felt bad because i woke him.
he say's i didnt.
i just want to go home.
i dont sleep Great there anymore
but at least i sleep.
i want kyle to get up (he's sleeping)
and hold ( Read more... ) -
home
im over at kyle's.
im staying there tonight, and maybe tomorrow night if it snow's really badly.
my anxiety is killing me.
i want to go home or cry. whichever.
kyle isnt helping me.
he's sitting on the couch.
im going to change and go to bed.
hopefully things will get better.
or i will be updating more later.
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i never follow my resolutions, but i need to try ( Read more... ) -
christmas
so christmas eve was a lot of fun. my parents and grandpa and kyle and his family all went to a carol sing at the fire house in Wurtsburro and then we met my aunt and uncle up at chruch for midnight mass (9pm). it was so nice having them there. i sat by my aunt and kyle next to me in church and all we did was laugh. my aunt had already had 3 ( Read more... ) -
snow day
so its snowing pretty badly here. we had our carpets
cleaned and now we are confined to the kitchen,
mom's room, and my bedroom and the backroom. thats it.
it wouldnt be so bad butall the stuff that was in the
living room and dinningroom are now in the back
bedroom, my room, the kitchen, and parents room.
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show
so kyle is doing a show with me on Sat. in NJ. ive been doing this stuff since i was 3 and this is his first time, so it should be very interesting.... our part was to do a flip and some swing dance moves on stage. it was actually a big part, bigger than anything ive had in a long time. it was very exciting, but then at practice on friday my cousin ( Read more... ) -
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im contemplating skipping classes tomorrow....
taking a much needed mental health day.
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"i wanna hold your hand... i wanna hold your hand."
random thoughts, thats what happens when i think. its not all the time, but nothing makes sence anymore. i look at people walking by and random thoughts about them just appear. in my head they begin to look like the people in MIRRORMASK. its creepy and unwanted. i try and make it stop but then the ( Read more... )