And so it begins. All over again. It's like I think I have it covered, but I don't. He thinks he can just talk to me. Like it's no big deal. IT IS. I practically break down. That's just how pathetic I am. It hurts way too much. I know, when you really care about someone you are willing to make it work. Then wouldn't it be the same for him? He ( Read more... )

Today was rather shitty. I don't have a lot of energy left so this will be rather brief, but it kind of feels like when I need someone the most, there isn't anyone there. And almost everyone I'm close to...needs a lot of fixing. I'm not trying to be mean. I know I have a lot of things I NEED to work on. Thing is, I am working on those things. I'm ( Read more... )

Sometimes just as things start to make sense, everything just comes undone. You can't really understand why or how. It just does. It doesn't really pay to try to figure it out because you'll only become exhuasted and find no real answer to the question. So instead it permeates.It becomes consuming and that's all you can think of. What did you do ( Read more... )

So I just got home, and I'm kinda tired. I don't really know how I'm feeling. Not really. I think mainly, I'm just confused. I don't know how to read people. I suck at it. I don't know why! You would think I'd you know, somehow be able to understand but I'm oblivious. Chad called and left me a message, and I was like huh. Really funny. I said we ( Read more... )

OuCh. I just woke up from a short nap. My burn hurts so bad. My lips hurt real bad. lol. No, but really. They do. I've been having weird dreams again. I'm not really surprised. I generally have strange and unusal dreams. Half the time they don't make any sense. Which leaves me analyzing. Is my sub-conscience trying to tell me something? If so, what ( Read more... )

You hear about how there are those "people" out there. Who are real, sweet, honest, and just amazing. I haven't been as fortunate in encountering a lot of people like that. But recently I have. And for that I'm so thankful. He's so sweet and shy and real. I can tell him anything, and even if his response is just quietness, I know he listened and ( Read more... )

I just got home not to long ago. It was a long day. I kind of felt like it wasn't ever going to end. It went quickly at the same time though, when I look back. Most of my days feel like that. I don't really want them to, because I don't want to look back fifty years from now and realize I was so busy worrying about the future that I missed the ( Read more... )

Saw that this guy I met who happens to be super sweet and wonderful was on here. I thought I'd try it out. See how it goes. That's all for now. This site seems kind of confusing. Then again computers and stuff confuse me.