i feel infinitely hopeless. everything is hard, i don't know why i can't relax and just go with it. everything i want to do seems like a horizon that i'll never reach-- personal training, a happy relationship, an easy living situation, my law suit. i've never felt more depressed than i've felt in the past two months. life is really fucking hard, ( Read more... )

i went to an al anon meeting. i cant believe ive been putting that off for almost 11 years now.

its too nice to sit at my computer. and i feel a bond deep enough to keep me coming back to livejournal just so i can continue being a part of the both of your lives ( Read more... )

i wonder how valerie lucas is doing

15 pounds later, and im the skinniest ive been since middle school. still not hungry ( Read more... )

broken, bitter, pissed off, love sick, and not fucking hungry.

well there goes two and a half years of my life down the fucking toilet. thats what i get for hanging on to something that wasnt ever there.

is it the worst that my heart is breaking because my brother is getting married?

i want to be 10 again.

man. i feel like everyone knew it was my birthday today. i love that feeling ( Read more... )

i need jessica lea mayfield to be my girlfriend right now.
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