I cant help but feel completely and utterly selfish when i look at all that is going on around me. I see nothing but pain and heartache caused by death. All around, people I know are losing friends or family, and here I am complaining about how I cant find a right girl. I should feel fortunate that I'm not going through the loss of losing a loved ( Read more... )

Was the worst thing that ever happened to me, been the best thing so far? That's how it seems. Maybe its because I have such high standards, and that all the ones that I meet arent necessarily looking for what I'm lookin for. Its hard to meet someone, especially with the life that I lead. I lead a life filled with superficial people and high ( Read more... )

Does anyone even read this?

In this episode we talk about what is going on with my life. Im no longer a college student. I play in HA full time which isnt such a bad thing. I just wish that we toured a lot more than we do right now. I understand that we have our financial obligations to the band and to our families so that touring 11 months out of the year just isnt possible ( Read more... )

Five details about me ( Read more... )

when you learn not to want things so badly, life comes to you. No longer will I pursue wut i want. Ill still want and desire, but I wont chase. good things come to those who wait.

You're my unicorn. Makes sense

I guess im goin with just an open mind. Knowing what I want isnt what's right. Im expecting nothing more than nothing. I guess it leaves me no room for disappointment. But its still something to look forward to. A new experience in a new place. Who knows what will happen.

Ugh so i got caught...i usually pretended to tho cash into the toll booth n got away with it for like 3 years. Now i got a ticket for $55 in the mail. I guess it added up over time n i came out on top. Fuck them lol. I just cant stand tolls. But yea that definately puts a dent in my cash flow. I got a couple hundred bucks comin in within a few days ( Read more... )

I guess i really have been out of it for a while. I cant seem to read people anymore. Male or female. I used to be so good at it. Or mayb its cause i keep getting signals messed up or hopes up. Who knows. I guess i shouldnt even be lookin for somethin. Ugh i cant focus right now...people imin me and shit. I cant wait to go to Maryland next weekend ( Read more... )