I don't know why I continue to do this to myself. I lead myself down the wrong path towards hate and torment. I'm following the road of perdition, i swear I am... I just want to throw-up, what I do makes me sick. Why can't I just stop, and wait for it to come to me instead of tricking. Why? I just want to meet someone nice for a change... not ( Read more... )

I got my license back! WOO HOO!

Well livejournal, i've come full circle in since last summer, and still I've managed to end up in the same place I was, just with different people and slightly... ok different situations, but still, I'm where I was last year. And I can't get out of this self-destructional funk... I don't quite understand it... Today I did something I was not proud ( Read more... )

SO I auditioned for a show, and I got in... it's very exciting. I got the role of Beast in "Beauty and the Beast." www.henryplayers.com is where you can check out more about it. OMG the youngest person to ever play the role in the Disney production. YAY ( Read more... )

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What am I to do livejournal? I'm scared, but not sure what of. I'm confused, yet I feel purpose. I'm sad, but I look happy. Why does my mind play tricks on me? Why can't it make up it's mind!?! All I want is to find someone nice and have my career and settle down!!!! But I have met someone, but I'm not allowed to like him. He's sweet and kind, and ( Read more... )

Has anyone out there felt totally lost? I do... maybe I'm just in an emotional funk. So I've met a few guys here and there... but nothing seems to come of it... not that i need a guy to feel emotionally complete... I just... well I'm lost... I've started meditating, and I feel better afterwards, but not sure how so... and I'm trying to get threw ( Read more... )

So today I got a call from my boss, and it was ok. But then I found out I broke a castmate of mine. I mean, not... she got hurt on the job and it hurt for a day... like, she went to the hospital recently because of it. Now it's not that we completely were being stupid and stuff, but its just that I grabbed her differently than I usually do, and she ( Read more... )

Yo no sé lo que ha sucedido a mí en los últimos 3 días. This makes no sense, much like that just made no sense. I think I'm going insaine, and I'm not kidding. Life has thrown me some weird curve balls --best friends, boy friends, dead boyfriends, music, talent, friends. But I'm not sure what to think anymore. It's like I think I'm no longer myself ( Read more... )

Today was a trial of the emotions livejournal --and I'm not quite sure why? I woke up and went to work like normal. Work was fantastic because I love my cast and crew, and everything was going swell. But then, I get into the car with one of my castmates, lets call him Ron Burgundy, and something snapped inside of me. I wasn't quite sure what it was ( Read more... )