Okay, I need a job or two. I need to get my license, along with a car. Get myself some new friends; along with a girl. I need to get some tattoos. I need to get the fuck out of Wisconsin. Whats up, Seattle or Henderson? It all fucking starts soon.

I'm sick of this. I'm a fucking loser, and I know this. I was supposed to take my drivers test on Tuesday morning, but I had to cancel it, because I now have no one to take me. My mom has known about this since August and she decides to schedule a doctor appointment the same time as my test. Twenty fucking years old and no goddamn license. ( Read more... )

Its been a long while, so time for an update. I finally got a job. I'm now working at Kohl's for the third shift. Its a pretty legit job. Its not really hard, its just a lot to do. I work with what seems to be really nice and cool people, so thats good. I'm only working a few nights a week too. That is the only thing I can check off of my checklist ( Read more... )

MY CHECKLIST:

• Get a job
• Get my actual license (currently scheduled for Nov. 11th)
• Make new Green Bay friends
• Lose anywhere between 20-40 pounds
• Get a car

Its been a while since an update, so I'm bored and will update this. Lately, I've felt like complete shit. I've felt like a horrible, worthless person; and I hate it. Its been almost a month since pretty much all of my friends left for school again, and I feel so alone. I just want to leave and go somewhere far away for a long time and start brand ( Read more... )

I feel like a piece of shit lately. I feel so damn useless and forgotten. I'm so, so, so lonely. This isn't me, this isn't what I do. I'm capable of much more. I've proven nothing to anyone. I don't and can't blame anyone but myself. I do too good of a job hiding it all. So fucking embarrassed. This needs to stop; now. I know what I need to do. It ( Read more... )

I've been so goddamn down the past few days. I hate it; I honestly do.

Fuck.

I feel like such a goddamn loser.

Damn it all.

I miss being a little kid. I miss being passed around the room like a picture as a baby. I miss my dad driving me around in the middle of the night just to get me to stop crying. I miss riding a bike with training wheels. I miss watching only Disney movies. I miss Lincoln Elementary. I miss being picked first for just about everything we played at ( Read more... )

 I am really bored and wide awake, so I guess I'm going to "update" this... even though there is really nothing to update about. Just been hanging around doing not much of anything. So, I'll just do a quick type up of what did this weekend. Friday, I didn't do anything. I just chilled at home alone.  I wanted to go to a show in Oshkosh, but couldn' ( Read more... )