So it turns out, sometimes life can go the way you want. That's how it's been the last week or so. I got the phone I wanted, and I go to hang out with my friends this weekend. Then yesterday I got all my stuff done that I wanted to: memorizing my monologue, getting my quotes to cite for my research paper, and I actually did my swimming homework too ( Read more... )

Another thing with the scene. One thing I hated was that I knew it would have been better given more time to it, and that shouldn't have been needed, I SHOULD have given more time to it, and I let myself down by not.

Whatever, my bi-polar side has gotten the best of me and I need to do homework now.

First things first. Screw LJ cuts ( Read more... )

Screw it. I'm done caring. I don't care if people think I'm being depressed without a reason, nor do I care if they hate me for it. I'm done with everything. Tyler was right, there's no point in bitching about something if you're not going to get off your ass and do something about it.

Sulking by myself does absolutely nothing for me. Whenever I say something to anyone, I get an awkward "I'm sorry." and then a long pause, and neither of us say anything until I change the subject. I don't want you to feel sorry for me. Fuck, I can feel sorry for myself thank you very much. I want you to be willing to stick with me while I'm ( Read more... )

I think I've realized my problem. I hate the way people conform to society, but then every now and then I realize that I'm one of those people, and I hate myself for it. But it's different this time. I've never though it so strongly before. I really do hate everything. I hate what society made me and I hate that I did it without a fight ( Read more... )

the bad part: I'm depressed. the worse part: I don't even understand why ( Read more... )

People are dumb. Allison should kick his ass, he deserves it.

So I got an A on my Spanish test and wrote an easy 4 pages for my english paper, telling me basically this: A's this semester really aren't as far out of reach as it seems. I figure if I have A's by the end of the month, that ought to give me enough motivation, considering my research paper (the biggest thing in all my classes) is due by the last ( Read more... )

My life is like a game show.

The goal: Finish the semester with good grades (B's at MINIMUM)

The incentive: A brand spanking new Nikon SLR Camera for my birthday (about $300 more than the usual 18th birthday gift goes for in my family)

The obstacle: 16 credits, a part time job, and a social life.

LETS SPIN THE WHEEL AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS!