The stars have spoken yet again. What once was, has become a graveyard. A place we visit all too often, but never enough. If this is my purpose, then please take it away. All the mountains we have laid between us over time, the oceans between....and still somehow...somehow. We travel the earth alone, cold, angry, resentful...and in a single instant ( Read more... )

its so hard loving someone who's going to leave you eventually. i just needed to share that...

crazy. 21 weeks since my last post lol holy fucktard. so yea. i'm living in St. John's now, that happened rather quickly. Dad got sick, i was out here with him and decided FUCK LABRADOR CITY! I want to live on the island. 2 weeks later, i am officially a resident of st. john's. sweeeeeet. and toast came too, but since i'm staying with the rents i ( Read more... )

ya know how they say, as soon as you stop looking for something, you find it. thats how i feel right now. for so long i stuggled with my desire for companionship with the perfect person. it was so consuming that it blinded me to the real deal. it was casuing me so much pain and heartache for no good reason at all. so i re-assessed my priorities and ( Read more... )

i was unsure until now. but the evidence is irrefutable. we are meant to be together. someday, somehow. it helps having that solid knowledge. "if you love someone,  you have to let them go. if they come back they're yours, thats how you know" never was there a more truthful thing spoken. Oh to see what time will hold in store for us. the wheels are ( Read more... )

i've succeeded in driving away two people i care about the most. karma's a bitch. this is where i draw the line, no more bitching, no more complaining because obviously it makes people hate me, and i don't blame them. good bye hoesty, hello fake-happy face.

ya know..."come on eileen" is a fuckin fantastic song. just thought everyone should know that.

So as much help as my mom has been with Mila, and she has been great, she needs to get a hold of the fact that this is not her baby. Things she would do, or wouldn't do, that doesn't mean thats the way i have to do it. Like for instance, my sister was holding Mila, and I had poured her a drink for after she had put Mila down. Before she could even ( Read more... )

i fucking hate the world right now. my last 2 days of freedom and i'm locked in a room like a fucking prisoner. how god damn insensitive can you be. they know the paint fumes make me sick to my stomache, yet they insist on painting the whole god damn house with me here. its bad enough being behind a closed door, i can't even make myself something ( Read more... )

so it begins. the beginning of the end. could i have possibly picked a worse time?
probably not.