I haave a WHOLE new journal. But its private. So all this shit is waaaay old. and waaaaaaaaaay different.

I hate not having security. like no protection. Now ...in the real world alone I feel like a soldier in a battle on his own, without a team like im doing everything on my own now....there is a perfectly good explanation for htat though because well....
I AM.

i would have to say that things are okay.
i think.
or..hope. im just not really sure what it is. but i think. actually no i dont.

bummer.

I am oh so tired of this. tired of life right now. im tired of waiting ( Read more... )

Im not relieved and im not happy. Im very sad actually. i mean i love him i really do, i love him a lot. and i wwont stop. Its just things werent the same anymore. I never lost interest, or got bored, we just fought so much because we were alike in a lot of ways ( Read more... )

stressed, complicated, nervous, excited, prom, mmm, weekend, anxxious, mom, parents, college, weekend...ayy yayyyyy yayyyy. bleh. hmm fuck. mmmm fuck. yes fuck. good fuck.

Well best friends means, best friends means ( Read more... )

Why am I such an emotional wreck. I hate being emotional. I hate crying. It feels like im catching up on yeeaaarrs of fellings that ive been hiding ( Read more... )

good terms
good friends
good family
good school
good life
good grief

excited for.
prom
christufies birthday
valentines day
license baaack
time
graduation
college
real world
adventure
people
life

hes going to have a good one. I can see it now. I will make his day he just doesn't know it yet. :)