She was only 19. I didn't know her well, but I did see her, talk to her, party with her, and laugh with her ( Read more... )

So I just figured it out ( Read more... )

two years ago today, i was happy. two years ago i was planning my wedding. two years ago i would have been leaving to san angelo to see him or pick him up today. i can still remember our drive up to washington. it was beautiful. it was so beautiful. we were both so happy and excited. we were starting our lives together. we were going to have a home ( Read more... )

I can't believe how quickly life changes. My life has changed so much since I first started this journal, it makes me want to cry. So much happiness, so much pain...I don't know what to say anymore. I have no expectations, I will not let myself be hurt again.

I just finished reading all of my journal entries from when I started this account. Interesting. My life is stable for now. I'm busy with school, as usual. I still have no idea what I'm doing. I'm OK though. Helena's good. Everything is OK.

it is 11pm and I am in the library at school. i am tired and still studying for my math final tomorrow, i can get a 55 on it and still pass the class, so i guess I shouldn't be killing myself too much over it. i quit my job today. my friend got mad at me because now she has to work there by herself this week, but i don't really care. i know that ( Read more... )

Her bloodwork came back and her Kidney's are doing fine right now. I'll be giving her antibiotics until her UTI is gone.

Yesterday I noticed blood in the snow from Helena. She has chronic UTI's due to the constant flow of urine. Today, however, I noticed a lot of blood. I took her to the animal hospital here and the vet said it might be blood coming from her kidney's. If that's the case, this may be it for Helena. They did blood work specifically to see how her ( Read more... )

Everything is OK for now. The snow, on the other hand, is absoultely gorgeous!! Helena has been having the best time in it, and she's been extra good about not barking in the mornings! Roman, is a bit apprehensive about this white cold stuff but still ventures outside. My good friend and her husband came and started a snow fight with me the other ( Read more... )

I can't believe this is happening to me. All of a sudden. I can't deal with this. I don't want to deal with this. I want everything to be the way it used to be. I feel like I have no control over it- and i don't. How do you leave someone you love? What if it doesn't work? I know I'm young, I have so much ahead of me. This is killing me.