i could be the rock you need, i could be the reason you wake up every morning. You may not know it but you are one of the biggest reasons i wake up every morning, one of the reasons i keep fighting the horrible thoughts in my head. I wish SO bad that i didnt think this way. I know that life is precious, i value life, but i still have my days ( Read more... )

for many parts of my life, including my childhood, i have thought of changing my gender. there are days when i dont feel like a woman at all, when i feel like im a man through and through. I feel i would do better in this world if i were a man. i feel like my parents wouldn't dislike me as much if i was, i feel like life would be easier. Today ( Read more... )

Have you ever just wanted to burst with emotion? good or bad or a mix of both ( Read more... )

every time i see you, on my mind, in the back of my head is the thought of kissing you...how you would react, how your lips would feel pressed against mine, how your body would react ( Read more... )

i really am writing this to myself, i usually do. I dont think anyone ever reads this which i guess is fine,it doesnt really bother me, i only ever got it to talk to "her" and hse doesnt even have one anymore, that i dont think ( Read more... )

so..after almost a full year, we are talking again. a couple weeks shy of a year, but i kept my promise to her. To back off and stay away for a year. I have her number again, we are talking again...but something that comes along with talking to her again..is feeling what i felt before.but ( Read more... )

So i have this habit, of getting new journals and forgetting other ones. I havent been here in "70 weeks". the last time i was here, i dont even remember where i was. I checked this on deployment because it was the only thing i could get ahold of ( Read more... )

well, after a long deployment, and having not written in this in over six months, i do not expect anyone to get this, but im hoping someone reads it ( Read more... )

my grandfather died...my awol friend dissapeard again, anjanettes ex is trying to cause problems..and im a bitch..thats all there is to say

i have never wanted to say this to you, i have never thought of saying this to you...but i have two words for you ( Read more... )