It cant be good for my health to feel this awful...:'(

im in a weird mood. i havnt slept much lately. probalyl about 5 hours a night. its been stressful. lets just say...i found out alot i didnt want to. yet im still here. in love with zech. through thick and thin.  i love him. im not gunna give up. even if hes making a few mistakes. and i realized why i dont liek girls. they just cause to much drama. ( Read more... )

When I'm alone I fall apart. I dont even know whats wrong with me. I'm just sad. Summers almost over. its been the worst summer ever. it honestly has. i havnt had much fun at all. maybe cause i set my hopes up...in like april for this summer to be the most amazing summer of my life....and everything i planned fell apart. and it didnt happen. I had ( Read more... )

normally when you think something is to good to be true...it is. its to good to be true. something has to go wrong. wether it be a guy or girl you like, or date, or friendships. or a situation. if its really good and you think it wont last...it probally wont. maybe thats just my life. good things just dont work out for me. i knew from the mintue i ( Read more... )

the spill canvas.
halifax.
so they say.
sugarcult.

17.60 clutch cargos, september 22.

who wants to go?

its 7 23 am.
me and mandi jsut pulled an all nighter

doing really nothing at all.....
time flew past.
now the suns up.
bout to watch high 5

be jealous mother fuckers

this his how summer should be...only like 30 degrees hotter

been hanging out with my friends alot lately. Havn't really talked to Zech. It makes me really down but idk i cant do anything. im going to church tonight with mandi. And I dont know who else is going. who cares though. we dotn even have to go. me and mandi want to. im getting more into God witch is a really good thing. Theres so much i dont ( Read more... )

Im getting up at 8. its 2 am pretty much. tommorw is the funeral. its going to be hard. I finally talked to Abby today though. I missed her like no other.  She sounds okay. im pretty scared for tommorw. just cause i dont know what to think of it. Its weird to think Basilo is gone. hes always there, hes always doing something. hes been an amazing ( Read more... )

i'll proballllly update a really long entry the next time i just have a few little things to say ( Read more... )

he ended it for good...

ive never ever felt so shitty.
I want to go to sleep...and not wake up ...

i dont see me ever getting better.