I just feel like i'm not worth anybodys time ( Read more... )

I just got off the phone with Zech. Im really happy. I had a good day today. and last night. Zech called me and was being a huge sweetheart to me. and then today iI woke up and Zech called me right away. I took a shower and woke mandi up and we went over there. It was so amazing seeing him. I love everything about that kid. Well after awhile We ( Read more... )

i'm alone. kinda. my moms here and stuff but  mandis not here. Its weird lol. We've been joined at the hip lately so her not being here is kinda weird to me. its cool though. i just took a shower. I talked to zech last night on the phone for a little bit and i feel better, i was kinda down cause i seemed to be getting ignored by him, but i know its ( Read more... )

I get insanely jealous and I always will. I will always think that the person I am with or that i like can do better, I know there is prettier, funner, more amazing girls that the guy im with could be with. I just am insacure. Ive always been cheated on. Every guy ive ever known, has cheated on me or left me for another girl. So I get scared when i ( Read more... )

Why can't guys just be honest? Like...about who they are with or what their doing...even if i don't like the person your with...i'd rahter have you be honest with me then lie to me about it. I feel crappy. I know I want him more then he wants this. I know I do. Cause i dont care, I will stop talking to certin guys to make him happy, it doesnt ( Read more... )

life is starting to turn around in a good way.
at lease zechwise.
i hope i dont jinx myself saying that...

Ive never been so unhappy. hes not going to the fireworks with me anymore. he has to go to his familys. I'm soooo let down. I dont know why i let myself get excited, deep down i knew he wouldnt go. it ruined my mood. then we kinda fought and i dont think hes talking to me right now. So another night of crying and not sleeping. everything is so.... ( Read more... )

Its raining. I'm sitting inside. My aunt (dads sister) is sitting downstairs with my mom talking. She walked in and you could tell she'd been crying. I think my mom told her about her dating somebody. My life is turning way crappier then I thought. I thought I'd hit bottem but I was wrong. My brother leaves for California tommorw. Im worried abotu ( Read more... )

Everything is so much harder then i thought. Ive cried way to many hours. Then dyed my hair...big mistake. My eyes still burn from the dye. I never thought I would fall apart so much in the past week. I didnt know everything I counted on was getting ready to leave. Now im here with nothing...Nothing to hold onto, nobody to tell me its gunna be okay ( Read more... )

He broke up with me.

and my entire world is falling apart.
:'(