I'm fasting for as long as possible - hopefully until next wednesday when I go to see my boyfriend. Should be possible, and hopefully it'll get me back into restricting again. 

I don't want to start purging again. I'm very sure that if I do, I won't ever be able to stop.

I'm not losing weight. I want to, but I'm not very good at it right now for some reason. I won't be making any promises to drop any pounds in the near future and hopefully that will let me fall into apathy and I can lose them without trying, ha, would be funny ( Read more... )

Seeing my GP tomorrow. I don't really know what to say to her. The citalopram had been helping but recently I'm just really down all the time. Maybe I need a higher dose, maybe not. I'm pretty sure my depression is directly and intrinsicaly linked with my weight loss. If I start losing weight I'll be able to make friends, actually start some uni ( Read more... )

no motivation to work. eating too much. want to die. citalopram no longer helping.

Eating even less now. But now I'm starting to feel hungry periodically which is a bit scary ( Read more... )

On citalopram for anxiety/depression and quietiapine at night to help me sleep ( Read more... )

I am so stressed out right now, Jesus. In the next two weeks I have two lab reports due (neither of which have we had the labs for yet), two oral presentations, a test, and my lectures have virtually doubled in number. I need to do laundry, tidy up my room, and catch up on the lectures I've missed. I need to lose 523870lb for Valentine's day ( Read more... )

1. Fit into those jeans.
2. Finish all assignments on time and to a damn good standard.
3. Keep room tidy!!
4. Have no more than one 'slip-up' day a week.
5. Lose 20lb in 5 weeks. Is that possible? Probably. We'll see.

I can't believe I was 118/119 at one point. Is it two years ago now? God, it makes me want to cry and cry and cry ( Read more... )