Today i went to new york with my family.  i officially hate them.  meghan came, so i didnt have to spend too much time with them..we went to a gay amusement park in lake george and we just went off on our own. the car ride down and back was enough to drive us both insane.  i wont elaborate..youre welcome.

tomorrow..well tomorrow i have royally ( Read more... )

i miss mike. this is so annoying. i havent gone more than a day without seeing him since we met.  im so pathetic..

Last night i went to see fireworks with meghan in south hadley. i knew mike was calling so i made sure i was gonna be home by 11 before i said i'd go. that dumb bitch swore up and fuckin down i'd be home way before 11..but..surprise, i ( Read more... )

What the fuck am i going to do??!  i just said goodbye to mike..hes leaving in the morning. i couldnt let him walk away..i always needed one more hug and one more kiss..i have a shitty feeling about this.

yesterday, me, mike, rachel, and corrine went to rhode island to watch a show. it was gay, but we had a lot of fun on the way home..mikes such a ( Read more... )

Mike asked me out a few days ago. im glad we got to know eachother first. but..still, nothing seems to be going right.  i went for a walk earlier and thought about stuff. i thought about everything. and i cried. for no reason. im sick of crying for nothing.  tears are good-for a cause-but without one they are meaningless and helpless. tears cried ( Read more... )

Same shit..every day. it gets me so depressed. Everyones trying to tell me that things are worse than they really are and i think im starting to believe them. its my life..fuck off!  its nice, though, to finally have someone around who actually cares about me and isnt fuckin oblivious to what i'm feeling. its awesome to have someone i can actually ( Read more... )

im bored. finals suck. tomorrow will suck. a lot. mikes coming over in a few then i think were going to play with fire at meghans house and possibly zachs. meh. dont wanna do that. oh well. im out..hes coming now..so he says. hell be here in like 45 minutes.

this backround just..appeared o_0 ( Read more... )

ugh!  aofgjaghaofdgiagnoag IM SICK OF BEING BITCHED AT FOR NOTHING! fuck you!

okay..im done. i went to six flags with amanda and mike (no reggie..tear) and ..yeah. we went to six flags. then we went with mike to get dinner and then he decided we were gonna watch the matrix...okay. so we went to his house and watched half of it  (possibly the ( Read more... )

its fucking finally friday! yay!! graduations tonight but im not going cuz im gay like that. next year when the seniors graduate, its gonna be so depressing. maybe jay will kill me before that happens..heh. today was boring..i was tired..and aj's keeping secrets from me..psh. o_0 aokrijkghago im so bored!!!!!! AND i failed my fucking history ( Read more... )

being grounded sucks..cuz..when im grounded, i have no life. when im grounded, i break plans with everyone and then they hate me. when im grounded, i cant pleasure myself with Candy's pens.hah..just kiddin. its all very sad. slfidusgh grrrr! i finally get to meet amandas 'person' on saturday..were going to six flags..that will be interesting ( Read more... )