did my abs work out today and my arms work out but no cardio. Feel bad about it but at the same time just don't give a fuck. I've been hungry all day. I had some green beans (no calories) a banana (90 calories?) and some raw brocolli with fat free dressing (no idea what the dressing calorie is). All I can think about is how I'm a failure. Even ( Read more... )

I broke my Plateau after starvation for a couple of days. I feel relieved. I'm going to continue to starve for a few more days. See what happens. At least the hunger pains have gone away.

My sister is having that bi pass operation tomorrow and she's only like 50 pounds over weight and she got her insurance to pay for it. WTF. Now I'll have two thin sisters and I'll be struggling with my weight for the rest of my life. I feel so pissed off about this. One sister is naturally thin and this on gets the bi pass operation. I know my ( Read more... )

Tried to do my workout tape but since I did Tammie's work out tape I just couldn't do it. My legs were too tired. I feel like such a faliure. Tomorrow I will try yet another exercise tape and see how that goes. I hope I don't start obsessing and start buying lots of exercise tapes. I wish I knew of an aerobics class near here and I'd join that ( Read more... )

I noticed I have two friends now. I will friend you back later ( Read more... )

husband brought home fast food. I, of course, had to have some. So I did the Cardio 3-4 work out twice and drank 2 quarts of water and took more laxatives. I'm so mad at myself. I'm also very very worn out. The parts of cardio 3-4 I couldn't do I just ran in place. Their ab ripper is 200 sit ups. Couldn't do all of those. Why wont my ( Read more... )

I've gained 2 pounds so I'm taking laxatives and throwing up (unsuccessfully) and taking diuretics. I feel like shit.

I started fasting again today. It makes me feel better. Thinner. The laxatives took all day to work. I'm starting to think they aren't worth the effort. The water pills work. I use Aqua Ban. It's the best diuretic I could find ( Read more... )

Just talked to my sister. She is a recovered MIA. Anyway, she said I may be in a slump because I'm not getting any protein since I am fasting. So I ate some peanut butter. I was going to buy protein bars but they are too expensive. I will have to get my protein out of beans and such ( Read more... )

Last night I ate a lot of chips and salsa then ordered 5 shrimp with japalinos and cheese. I only ate 2 of the shrimp ( Read more... )