While I was in the hospital I had to eat. 4 times a day at that and they ordered double portions. So I've gained 4 pounds. Very unhappy about that. Today I started my diet again. I took some hoodia and cla 500 and chromiun picolinate this morning. ClA 500 is supposed to help turn fat into muscle. My doctor told me about it so you might want ( Read more... )

The Hoodia doesn't work. I still get hunger pains. sigh. wasted money. I'm still taking them in double doses to see if that works ( Read more... )

Just got my Hoodia. Got it from Drugstore.com. I like to shop there because I can hide things that I buy from the people living in the house. I'm not doing laxatives anymore. I don't think they work and it's uncomfortable. I still take diuretics. I took my first Hoodia about 1/2 hour ago. I'm hoping it will take the hunger pains away. I ( Read more... )

I mentioned on my other journal about my eating disorders and got an anony message about how I bitch about being fat and crazy and some other stuff. I should have known better than to think they would understand

when you have the time, could you fill this out? :] I want to learn more about you all ( Read more... )

Day 2 of fasting. I feel ok. I've dropped 3 pounds. Made some new friends. Things are going great ( Read more... )

Ate some beef stew ( Read more... )

I'm so depressed right now. Eating or not eating is all I think about. I even started thinking of what to write in my suicide note. Sean heard me crying and made an appointment with Nancy. I didn't work out because I feel like shit and I'm hungry. I weighed a little less tonight. Why wont it go any lower? I tried to talk to my Mom about ( Read more... )

I'm finally breaking down from all this bodily abuse. I fainted. I think I need help.

I'm so tired of feeling hungry all the time. Anyone have a solution?