For the past week I've only been taking in 400 cals a day. To be honest, I think it's been alot less than that. The only real meal I ate today was a piece of lasagna and garlic bread. My body puked it up, right after wards, I didn't even have to. I stopped trying to be mia because I don't have much of a gag relfex, so it took me SO long to actually purge. As much as I'd love to do it, it's just not for me. I'm literally, dying to be thin. I'm really glad that you wanted me to add you, cause I can comment here without anybody knowing right? People just don't understand. They're mad at me for not eating. Than today, I got yelled at for eating a can of chicken broth (6 cals) at the wrong time of day? It doesn't make sense. I can't wait until I'm skinny.
Yea no one can read this, no one nos it exists. People really dont understand. I fucked up today and for that I will be fasting for the next few days. Fuck being fat I hate it!! Mia is for me when I need it, I dont always need it. ana and I are much closer.Im going back to my 400 cal a day or less plan. Im so made at myself.
You want to know what's pathetic? My goal weight, is more than what you weigh right now. That's fucking gross. I've been this way my whole goddamn life and I HATE IT . I will do anything no matter how badly it hurts, to fix myself. I used to not want to lose weight cause I have big boobs (only confidence I have is in my boobs) and now i don't even care if I'm flat. People just don't fucking understand.
I was very overweight all my High School career. I starved my self nearly to death to be 98lbs and than I lost control and Im 117 again I want to die. You know we are seeing through the eyes of ana. i know I loook HUGE to myself and no one else and i dont care. there is a feeling i like the control the feeling of my bones poking out...
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