damn it has been awhile but i am back ( Read more... )

well i havent written in awhile,cause i slipped back into my old habits for one last four day mission. i now realize why i got the hell away from the shit in the first place. i know now that it will never again control my life. i have way too much to lose now if i give in to temptation ( Read more... )

staring out at the rain with a heavy heart its the end of the world in my mind then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call iv been looking for the answer somewhere i couldnt see that it was right there but now i know what i didnt know because you live and breath because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help because you live ( Read more... )

well here we are again ( Read more... )

i feel like im losing my best friend,i realize shes only moving,but i still feel the loss ( Read more... )

take charge of your life!why should you?whats in it for you?when you feel in control of your life,you are most satisfied with it.taking charge leads to feelings of strength and self-confidence.strength and self-confidence give you courage to risk new things.risking new things enables you to grow. growing empowers you to reach your greatest ( Read more... )

i am out on the wind,in the wild ,black night;
on the wings of the owl,i take my flight;
on the ghostly wings of the great white owl;
and whether the night be fair or foul;
or the moon be up and the thunder growl;
and the woman you cradled against your breast;
is out in the night on the black windscreast;
for only the wild can give me rest;

i am now walking in darkness,surrounded by the limitations of space and time.
only a cry from the heart, a trusting cry, ever pierces that darkness.
there will be days when i will hear no voice in my mind and when there will come no
intimate heart-to-heart communication.
i fear today is that day.

sometimes in my life i allow others to make my decisions for me,because that way if it turns out wrong then its not my fault.but this time I made a very major decision. i realize my life is about to change
completely. nothing can or will ever be the same. a fresh start. i have to look at this positively.
everything happens for a reason.

i try so hard to keep everything in my life together, that the more i try the more everything falls apart.this started out so good, my plans were FINALLY falling into place. i was moving on, then she calls ( Read more... )