OK.
I spent a fair hour writing a good long out-pouring of such thoughts as have graced my mind in the past 7 months as I have delved into a plane of existence that you could imagine, if you would, but you don’t because it is such a plane of existence. And then light-off flashed through for a few minutes and there goes that hour spent in selfish ( Read more... )

In case I don't have time to write this before I leave ( Read more... )

where life is really lived.  In 5 days I will be in Ghana.  I can take 44 pounds.  1 suitcase.  That's it.  My suitcase itself weighs at least 8.  Yep.  I think that when I come back from Ghana I will:  1.  Have an awesome accent.   2. Be free of the computer/technology addiction of the american teen.  3.  Be unafriad to do anything.  4.  Be bored ( Read more... )

So 11 months.  Kinda crazy.  Very, actually.  Amazing how much I've learned, how much things are going to change.  I've learned that I can pretend to control emotion and not feel it.  But that, in reality, I don't own emotion, I rent.  (I know, I know, that was bad)   So yeah.   The best gift I think I've ever recieved.  And the best material gift ( Read more... )

Emilie's got  a boyfriend.  Mathieu ( Read more... )

One more month of this stagnation.  One more month of dependence.  One more month of childhood ( Read more... )

Ever felt like you're insane?

Too much coffee with Kate tonight.  Sleep is not happening.
So.  Was planning to write an incredibly boring entry organizing all my thoughts about all the campuses I saw in the last 5 days, but I have a feeling I'm going to get incredibly destracted by ranting about Rice's statements/Bush policy in the Isreal/Lebenon  (Christian/Islam) War as we ( Read more... )

Without cause, reason, or the slightest provocation I have been severely depressed the last two days.  I was actually in tears over something so minor I cannot now remember it.  Last night I got some theraputic time at Jonathan's.  Jonathan is too self-righteous to care, and Anna's a bit too asininely tempered.  But Daniel was in a bad mood too, so ( Read more... )

I knew life was going too good.  And just waiting for me to fuck it up.  Now it seems like it's time for me to fuck everything up at once and get it all over with.